sorry for pissing many of you off.....yeah i know, I havnt pissed you all off, but all the same, its unhealthy, just expressing what you think quite so much. There is a lot to be said for keeping thoughts internalised, until they can be related to the wider society.

I am probably so self indulgent with my posting because i havn't found the right guidance for me, and rather than addressing this lack of knowing what is best to do, i have allowed myself to wonder.....I think this is mistaken and that we should all find what it is that is best for us to do....perhaps not when you are young, like you lot, you should drift for a small while.

So now my challange is to go off and find myself some help and guidance (though i have no idea where to turn.....but at least if i dont distract myself and dilute the anguish (by posting crappily and self indulgently), then it is likely to come to a head, and some resolution may occur.

Love you all, you've been great
Creaky